Tanna had been afraid to answer God's call to the mission field, but God showed her over and over again, specifically in the book of Philippians, how He would take care of her family, even in China. In her Bible, at the end of Philippians, Tanna wrote a personal commitment to the Lord, and she read this to us as she shared her testimony:
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Lord, I here in your precious holy Word commit myself, my husband, and my children, and all that I possess, or ever shall possess all to you. I will follow your leadership, even to China. Lord, open the doors and I shall go and tell the Chinese of your great love. In time of need supply for us, in time of trouble send peace, in time of joy send someone to share. Help me never to murmur or complain. I love you!
Tanna Jo Sellers Collins
During this Missions Conference, I went forward and promised God I would go to China too, if He so desired. At other times and various Missions Conferences, I gave my life to many countries, to many types of people! I desired for God to use me like He was using this beautiful missionary's wife.
I am not sure how much later it was that we found out (maybe a year?) that the entire Collins family was tragically killed in an airplane crash in the Himalayan Mountains. At the times of their death, Joe was only 26 years old and Tanna only 27 years old. Their five children were ages 6 and under. We were stunned.
It is natural to question why God would allow something like this to happen. It is natural to think back to Tanna's testimony and realize that she did indeed have a reason to fear the future for herself and her family.
In our human minds, it seems to make more sense for God to allow these missionaries to live and continue spreading God's Word in China. But, God tells us in Isaiah 55:8-11: For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts. For as the rain cometh down, and the snow from heaven, and returneth not thither, but watereth the earth, and maketh it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower, and bread to the eater: So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.
Tanna's parents have now taken over the children's home this young family had already started, and other missionaries have risen to the challenge to go forward and take their place. Because of their death, possibly many, many more souls will be brought to Jesus.
We cannot choose our futures, but we can choose our commitment to Christ.
I am committed to bring souls to Christ... even when it is not easy on the mission field. The daily difficulties seem so small in comparison, don't they? I don't want to stand before Christ one day and say, "Well, Lord, you know I wanted to serve you, but... {whatever excuse I found to leave the mission field}."
No. I am a sinner with many imperfections, but I am committed. How about you? Are you committed too?
To read more about the Collins family, click these links:
Obedience to the call of God
BIMI World Magazine Online
To get a DVD about this family, click here.